Planning For The Halloween Party (Part 2)

The company's Halloween Party will be on November 2nd. I know it's kinda late to celebrate but what the heck..fun and excitement is the thing that matters here. My officemates are very busy looking for their costumes, some are busy for the set up and all. I don't have much time to make my Tinkerbell costume, so I let my grandma make it for me. It's not yet done, and I hope it's gonna be stunning. I'm crossing my fingers to that.

The costume doesn't look like of this picture, but the color and style is somewhat like that..lol. Does that makes sense? hehe. My boyfriend said he will be visiting me during the party, but I hope not because he will then bitch (scold) at me when he sees my backless, tube-type costume.I'm thankful that I finally got his consent to wear the costume. So we went to the mall on Tuesday and look for an adult Tinky costume, unfortunately there was none. waaahh. But it's ok though, I just let my grandma make it for me because I don't have much time to look for a Tinkerbell costume anymore.

I think I will be going to the mall after my work and buy the wings and a wand. I'm soooo excited! I will be posting some pictures from the event. Watch out for that.

This cutie lil guy is ready for the party hehehehe.

So...what is everyone being??








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Mood Swings

LIfe has been crazy. Changes happening all around. Good things and bad things going on. How cryptic would you like it? Ugh.

My weekends was quite ok. But I tell you, I really hate Sundays!
My man's Mood Swings strike again. And he couldn't control his mood. Maybe it was a cause of stress at home and at his work. I just hope he won't go erratic.

So when he is in a bad mood, I back off. and when I'm in an a bad mood, he backs off. But most of all times, it was his temper that was intense. So he promised that he will try to control his temper. I just hope. :)

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Some of my favorite things right now......sleep/food/coffee/sleep/food/coffee. Repeat.

To Move Forward

First off, sorry if this is going to be a crappy entry. People who are close to me know how generally positive I am. I've been going through somewhat of a transition...recent events, recent people coming into my life, and ongoing thought and discussion with my parents and those close to me, especially my boyfriend, made me realize alot about myself.

I'm no longer a teen, and my life has been in pretty much the exact same place for years. So after school, I've done...well, nothing.

My panic attacks are almost gone, and people who knew me years ago are constantly telling me how much my demeanor and attitude have improved...so in that aspect, I'm doing rather awesomely. So that's good, but other than that, I've pretty much been at a stand-still. I'm well aware of it, and I can't give an excuse as to why I've never done anything about it. Comfort, maybe.

In the past 3 years (well..almost) I've finally remained in one spot. that didn't help much either. It's kind of funny coming from me, but the main "kick-in-the-ass" causing everything to get into motion, was a guy. My ex.
I know, I know, shut up.

I was deleting my messages in my E-mail inbox and one E-mail from my ex caught my attention.. I've read it again. Nope, I haven't felt anything after reading the letter.. no I didn't cry..what for? I've deleted the E-mail after reading it. So, I will post this kind of entry once.. and never again. But hear me out. It's not as retarded as you're thinking. Not so much the guy in general, but the reasons why he cheated on me. I'm not going to get into details, because it was drawn out, painful, and far too emotional to recall...but in the end, made me realize he was absolutely right.

If someone who once adored you, who you felt you could actually have a future with in the long run and they tell you they share that feeling, becomes so convinced that you have no desire to move forward in your life, that they begrudgingly cut ties and move on to...elsewhere...there's a problem. Of course, I didn't see that at first and had a pretty bad freakout. Oh, the injustice, I asked myself before..how could he leave me?, blah blah...blah. Ok, I'll shut up. As much as it hurt...it took a while for me to actually understand what he was saying. And he was right. How can I expect to have a future with anyone, if I don't even act on efforts to make my OWN?

It was the real kicker, that made me realize I need to stop sitting around talking about the things I want to do, and to get up and DO IT. My friends agree that overall it ended up being sort of good for me. Somehow I think he was right. Burn! Ugh. I admit I was upset he gave up on me just like that...but it was, i guess. I needed it. I don't like what I had to lose, but one day I'll see why it was worth it. Also i know that the whole movie-romance-guy-realizes-his-error-and-comes-back thing is a bunch of crap.
He'll never see this,but his friends visit my blog sometimes but one day I hope I can thank him for finally putting what I'm doing with myself in perspective. People have tried to do it for a long time, and he did it, so...go team. I'm no longer mad at him.. but honestly...I'm glad he did what he did. Because I'm happier with the relationship I have with my boyfriend now.

So now I'm glad things are getting better for me and my man. Fingers crossed for this being the beginning of our happily ever after!

List of 7

I got tagged by Eds. Sorry if it took me awhile to post this. :D

THE RULES - List of 7

* each player starts with 7 random facts about themselves on their blog
* People who are tagged need to blog 7 facts about themselves and post the rules as well
* At the end of their blog list 7 people you are tagging. Let them know that they are tagged by leaving them a comment.

Here's mine:

1. I love to sleep, sleep and sleep
   
2. I can't cook to save my life. And I love to eat but I hate gaining weight.
3. I can't swim. Hehe. But I'm a diver. Does that makes sense? hehe.
4. I'm inlove.
5. I'm a bitch when provoked
6. I'm flat broke. Just keep those donations coming. haha. joke
7. I'm prettier and smarter than you. waaaahh :p. So if I can hack a one big site.. you think I can't hack yours? But don't sweat if I visit your site often ;)
   

Lol. I'm sleepy..so I'm kinda not in the mood for this tag. eheh. I'm not tagging anyone, just grab this tag from here if you like. Hehe.

I'm all smiles.. something wonderful had happened earlier. ;)

4th Monthsary

Days pass by so quickly! It's our 4th Monthsary. Yay!

I received a text from my boyfriend at 2:45 am.

"I love you so much, words are not enough to express my feelings for you. Thanks so much for everything."

Short and simple, but it makes me smile and gives my heart some excitement. hehehe.

I have the loving and sweetest boyfriend in the world. He showed me so much even if he knows little. He showered me all the love. Material things? Nah.. if J. Lo puts it.."my love don't cost a thing".. and he knows that. But I really thank him from cutie lil pillows to Valentino (hahaha.. oops! me and mah big mouth). But I'm not into material things.. and Hec knows that. Material stuffs are nice.. however, love is best.

But because I love trucks, so I guess I can wait for the Cadillac Escalade XLT (it came out in 2002 and revamped for 2008).

or F150 (2005) when he gets rich hahaha. Just joking!

We already have celebrated in advance,but I don't know if he has plans for today,coz he is working and I sleep during the day.But we'll see. ;)


Need a lift?

Oh before I forget, shout outs to Boss Charles!

50 Cent - Ayo Technology

Ok guys, another music video from 50 Cent featuring Justin Timberlake.


It's a really great music. Having Justin on guest vocals really lifts this track beyond the realm of "hip-hop by numbers". He gives it an edge as to those who are so used to hearing 50 Cent's take on crime, cash and women that Justin's backing acts like gaffer tape, stopping "50" in his tracks. With hosts of guests on his new album, why doesn't 50 Cent leave the building and let them take over?

Nobody would notice!

Oh geez, am I into hip-hop music now? Hehehe. The music is really good. ya know, the flickering synthesizers and plodding robotic beat sound, you have to turn up the volume because the sound is sooo amazing. Really dancable! This I will hear at Flow and MO2 next time. Hope Hec can dance with me in the Aquarium. It would be really fun. :D
Speaking of Smallville, Hec just visited me here in the office, and we went to Coffee Break at Smallville for a Choco Frappe take out. And we drove our way back to my office after 30 minutes.

By the way... it's our 4th Monthsary tomorrow. Yay! Fireworks please! lol.
but we already have celebrated our monthsary in advance. See previous entry.

No Reservations

"Life isn't always made to order"

We watched a good movie.. No Reservations, a romantic comedy starring Catherine Zeta-Jones and Aaron Eckhart.

Catherine plays Kate, a very uptight executive chef in a restaurant called 22 Bleecker. She's single and undergoing therapy and her life experiences more upheaval when she unexpectedly gains custody of her niece Zoe (Abigail Breslin), she's a tough lil kid, whose mother (Kate's sister) dies in a car wreck. The first 40 minutes of the movie will focus on the changes in Kate's life and work as she tries to be a mother figure.

You guys must watch the movie, and I'm sure you will be really hungry for the top flight meal. And guess what, Hec and I ended up having a bunch of meal after watching the movie. Oh by the way, Hec really loves the movie, there were some "kilig" scenes there and Hec was "kilig" as well hehe. See it for ya self.

So..I'm still severely, severely, severely antisocial and overbusy. Not many of you know that I've been pretty much sleepless since last month. the fiercest stretch would have to be a full month's worth of literal non-stop sleep.

And again.. I haven't had a smashing weekend.. somehow it was all good.

Saturday, my boyfriend picked me up by 2pm. Planned of watching a movie, unfortunately there were no good movies to watch. Some of them are tagalog movies and he knows I don't watch tagalog movies (well.. I have better movies to watch..so no tagalog movies please). And I wanted him to get a clean cut and he must be clean shaven so we went to the barber shop. And how can he miss teasing me again? lol. ggrr.

Sunday was upon me and I'm like starting to hate Sundays.

Ok, that's it for today's update. Ugh.

Last Song Syndrome

I have been singing the song Cupid's Chokehold by Gym Class Heroes since yesterday. This is just a remake/rewrite of a Supertramp's "Take A Look At My Girlfriend". It has a line that I really like:

"I know I'm young but if I had to choose her or the sun

I'd be one nocturnal son of a gun"

It's actually the chorus that I have been singing heheh

"Take a look at my girlfriend

She's the only one I got (ba ba da da)

Not much of a girlfriend

I never seem to get a lot (ba ba da da, ba ba da da)"

You guys must listen to the song, I'm pretty sure you will like it.

Watch the video:



That's it for now. I'm gonna see my boyfriend today. We will be spending the whole day together. :) Bleh. :p

Rooftop Mini Parteeee!

We have planned of having a lil gathering at the rooftop. The policy? No food, no entry. hahaha! Well.. that came from Vangie. Here are some pics just a while back:

See?.. lil gathering, lil food


Sushi is my fave! And that's Rina with her lumpia


Meet the Hannibal King.


No, we are not the birthday celebrants, and there ain't no birthday party either hehe.


Lutz (Hannibal King), Moi, Vitzky


This was supposed to be a candid shot. lol. what can I do.. I'm such a camwhore. lol.


With Chai Tonette!


See more of us..

What A Weekend!

Time for an update!

Friday night, I had dinner with friends at Smallville. I had so much fun.

Saturday consisted of:
- sleeping for 5 hours; woke up from Caren's (Tomas' girlfriend) phone call
- dinner at Breakthrough because it was Tomas' birthday
- went to Smallville.. drank beer.. booze booze booze!
- picture picture.. hehehe. (i'll post some pics as soon as I have them with me)

Sunday consisted of:
- sleeping the whole day
- went to church at 6pm
- went to SM City
- overlook our beautiful city

Today consisted of:
- fetched my boyfriend from his work
- went to the gym, unfortunately they don't have a game.. hehehe
- we had dinner together
- we kissed, cuddled, curled up to bed before going to my work.. hehehe
- we danced to Akon's Don't Matter.. ahhhh sweet. really sweet. I didn't wanna leave then. But I have to. :( .. I hope we can do it again.

I've read his blog, he said there that I'm like in doubt in our relationship..but he's wrong. I was just kinda worried... well.."sunggod" is the word hehehe..because he was moody for the past few weeks, and we hardly could spend time together because he is busy/frenzied with work lately and also busy taking care of his baby boy. I'm not complaining because I understand his situation, I just want him to talk to me, and not to just ignore me. The only thing that I don't like is when he is troubled, he would just ignore me. And I dont understand why. I'm thinking maybe he doesn't want me to worry as well? But he's now trying to make it up with me.. I seemingly got the old "him" back..and I'm Über happy!

I don't want him any other way.. and I love him everyday.

Oh To Be Young Again!

It's Kristine's birthday and we had dinner at Ihaw-Ihaw in Smallville. God, all my friends are gettin old! Apart from all the young ones that make me feel old. Carl didn't make it cause something came up..(emergency huh *big grin*). Some of Kristine's friends were also there and I didn't expect that because I thought it was only me and Carl that was invited hehehe. Anyway, her 22 year old friend, a boy, told me while we were eating that I looked 18 hahaha, awww sweet! I told him that it's one of the worst pick up line and that he must quit hitting on me cause he was a baby and I already have a boyfriend! He then said "what are you talking about? you can't be more than 2 or 3 years older than me". Lol. I just laughed and talked to Kristine. Hehehe.

So Kristine and I had a good talk. We are of the same age, she is funny, smart and never runs out of good stuffs to talk about. And I think I'm gonna miss her because she is going back to Chicago on Monday, and maybe live there for good with her husband. Maybe we are gonna see each other again tomorrow. But I'm not sure.. I don't feel like going out tomorrow night. I'm like having internal conflicts. My “assertive” persona is having it out with my inner “slacker”. The result is anyone's guess. I suppose we will just have to wait and see.

Ok, I gotta work now.

Don't Matter

My mp3 is currently playing Akon- Don't Matter. I think this was released in summer 2007? My boyfriend and I likes this song.. well this must be our song. It's quite catchy and has a chilled out vibe. And everytime this song was played on the radio or at the mall..even in his office..he would text me "they are playing our song". Saaaweeettt! :)

If you got to listen to the words, it seems nobody wants to see the guy and his girl together...for whatever reason. However it "don't matter" to him because they love each other. Also, he seems to apologize to her a lot as well. Why? because the guy was cheating on his girl ( oh God, I hope this won't happen to me). Ok, whatever.

Watch the video

Everything Comes In Full Cirlce

My friends. Yup, they're all guys. And I'm one of the boys. They're like my older brothers hehe. I had a good talk with Elstin over the phone when I arrived home from work yesterday morning. We talked about something important.

Also, I got to meet two of my friends around 9pm at one of the coffee shops near the office.

I haven't felt much like to be hyper at work, it looks like it isn't going to be much better. But, turned out to be rather productive after all.

I have been stirring coffee into my breakfast, lunch and dinner. There is something about this month(?) that requires alot of coffee of me, hehehe. Shhh.. don't tell Hec. And I'm kinda losing weight now. Yay!

Also I had a week full of questioning my intelligence. This isn't a "please-tell-me-I'm-smart" plea.. there are just so many people that have been on this earth longer than I have, that have ruminated on certain ideas more thoroughly, and just have understandings that I don't. I listen to them, and wonder how on earth I'll ever be able to compete? At least I'm relatively sure that it's mostly not a question of capacity, but of time.

It's starting to get colder here. I need a warm hug.

Planning For The Halloween Party

We are three weeks away from the scariest night of the year. everyone in the office is very excited for the upcoming party which be held at the old house of our CEO. And he said there are ghosts in there.. hehe really, well their maid before was found dead in that house decades ago. And they have just found her skeleton in 2004. Pretty scary huh.

Anyways, we are all planning of what to do..the decorations and all.. so we are just gonna light up candles.. which I think would add up to a good scare, blah. There is nothing like a hair-raising location to get you in the spirit of things. Again...we are gonna have a Halloween Party at a Haunted House! Fun, eh?

For the costume, I'm planning I'd be Tinkerbell, haha. Because I think it's cute, lovely and i want it backless and she has a wand! Oh I want that wand! however, my boyfriend doesn't want me to wear the costume, he doesn't want me to show some skin, lol. We even argued about it this morning. Really.

And since my boyfriend doesn't want the Tinkerbell costume for me to wear for the Halloween party,he suggested a Grim Reaper costume hahaha. that's not cool! *frowns*. I'm just gonna think of something else. Hmmm..

Horrible Feeling

I hate what's going on with me these past few days. Everything seems not to work out right. Everything! Part of me is negative..and there is a very small part of me IS trying to be positive. I thought to myself "maybe they're trying to get it right first time around".

I'm still sick. I had my health appraisal again yesterday. And this morning I went back to see my doc. Lots of blood tests..and even stress test. I had a terrible chest pain. It seems like there is something in my chest.. maybe I strained some muscles. Well yes my muscles don't get enough blood..and I am in agony. It's Also known as Angina, so there was like a squeezing pain in my chest..I could also feel the pain in my shoulders, arms, neck, and back. Ugh. I even had the worst sleep last night because of these hideous slicing pains. I hope my boyfriend doesn't read this. I just don't want him to worry. We were together after his work.. picked him up from his office..went to buy diapers for his baby. He is a busy guy and appreciate the time he had spent with me today.. his undivided time, that is. Lately, he seems moody and I truly understand why. And I don't know when would be the best time that I can joke around with him.. I just hope I could see him smile and laugh again. A loud laugh with no pretenses...no faking. I miss him. I miss the old "him".. the one who talks alot..and laughs laughs laughs. Shit.. I really need a wand, and wave it so that everything will be better for him.

I'm still craving for my night life. Honestly, I miss going out..ya know..the real party (don't get me wrong here..I love the changes in me, but sometimes I need to go out)..I'm severely antisocial and overbusy now. Why? because i'm saddled with work! a girl's gotta live, ya know.

anyway, I hate making posts like these, but I just wanted to make a note that I'm always bitchin', I'm inlove and I am just totally overwhelmed and totally like, OMFG. Zombie shit for brains, really. you don't want to have to talk to me right now. Hah.


p.s.
things SHOULD level out soon. i think.
I miss my giggly people-pestering & curious self.

Yay! It's a Holiday!

Got up this lazy day with nothin to do and BAM! there I was in all my nakedness..well, almost *grins*. Now it's monday and YAY for me it's Columbus Day in the United States. It's a holiday, no work tonight! But Boo cause I’m having a kind of a boring, and a shitty day. If you think about it, what would be the best song to describe the way you feel today? Mine would have to be, A Thousand Hours by the Cure. If you know the song you’ll get a good idea of how I’m feeling at the moment. I'm bored. Ugh. On a nice note.. I'll be meeting mah boyfriend later on. Bleh! :p

Happy Sunday!

Ok.. another entry for today. So far, I'm feeling better now.. no more headache..just a bit of coughing and yeah I'm alright. anyways, I had fun with my friends on Saturday, we've been drinking non-stop, as posted from my previous entry. It was fun being with them. Also I went to MO2.. and had 2 shots of Tequilla.. but my boyfriend texted me that I should go home and that he would call in 15 minutes. I could sense he was kinda mad coz I went to Smallville. so I panicked and went home lol. Part of me didn't want to leave the place coz I saw some friends there that I haven't seen for quite sometime now.. and they were like stopping me from leaving. lol. I missed the parteeee!! :(


And oh.. Ester gave me this award.. she said she likes my blog! I'm surprised and flattered. thanks Ester! I'm passing this on to Lutz, Magiting, Bisdak, Krung, and Pepe.

So far life is treating me well for today. My boyfriend has been taking care of me.. texting and calling only to check if i'm ok.. he is such a sweet guy. :)

And I will be at Bluejay (Smallville) tonight, gotta meet up with some great friends. Wanna come with me? :D

P.S.
I suck at entries right now.

Pacquiao wins rematch vs Barrera

Thought Barrera kept his feet, Pacquiao kept his supremacy.

He beat Barrera on Saturday night for the second time, winning an unanimous decision. Well.. what can I say.. it seems like Pacquiao's reflexes haven't slowed.

Pacquiao retained his WBC International championship title.

Drama Queen

I was absent from work last night due to colds and constant headache. And I haven't had a good sleep last night..there are alot of things whirling into my mind. I'm still not feeling well today.. and text messages from my friends are making me feel better. They want me to meet them,.. to talk.. coz they know I'm troubled. And so here I am at my friend's house..drinking.. drowning myself with alcohol.. hoping that this will keep me away from thinking about something that has been bothering me last night. Nothing much to update.. I just want to let you know that I have some life shattering, permanently life altering drama going on, so forgive me if I will not be around much. I just don't have it in me right now.

Fil-Ams demand apology from ABC and Desperate Housewives

I love the show..I'm not upset..sad nor proud of the matter. My concern is they should have not put it in the script eventhough it may have some truth to it. Some have said it was part of humor, however its not an excuse to put a racist comment on a popular show. They should have not generalized. Tsk tsk.

Read on the links in red below!
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Of course I've signed the petition. I'm number 59697. Hehehe.

Sick and Stressed Out

There's a lot of changes happening at work, and I'm not happy about any of it.
I'm really stressed out at the moment. I'm sick. I have colds and I have a constant headache. I'm actually causing myself to feel ill from stress. And although I had an 11 hours of sleep yesterday, I stll feel groggy and sleepy. What is happening to me? Argh.

And I just hit my head when I was reaching for my pen under my desk, and I think I may have given myself a concussion (what?? lol). I feel like my brain is trying to explode from my skull! It adds pain to my headache! So if I die..well.. I love you guys. Say nice things to me?

Change

Nothing super duper good happened today..other than that I'm so tired and sooo sleepy! Ugh.

So yesterday, I picked up my boyfriend from his work and walked around SM City.. rounds of talks and teasing of course hehe. Damn I hate it when he teases me alot.. Coz I easily get "pikon", so it would either I pinch him or I would poke him hehehe. Anyways, we finally have decided to stay at Coffeebreak, Jaro. The place to be hehe.

Also we talked alot..and it was great talking about something nice..something better. Because last week was ultra stressful for the both of us but things are starting to slow down. We've reclaimed our positive attitude. Life is easier than we lead ourselves to believe. Our body is so eager to stress out but we have to fight it. Life can be simple... it's also shit sometimes but we have to learn to just slide through it. I love this man so much. And I tell you, I have the loving, sweet and best boyfriend in the world. And I can see his changes.. it's like he still grows and flourish, (coz you know others wilt and just die off.) and I'm so proud of him because he is not afraid of learning to be mature. I suppose its the whole "change and mature" aspect of it all that freaks other people out. And he is in a constant change, an old soul who is fearless in his journey. And that makes me real proud. :D

Awful Feeling

I'm feeling seedy, I have colds and I'm very sore.
I had a great time together with boyfriend yesterday. We watched Rogue Assasin. 'Twas a good movie, then we went to the Sport Complex and got to watch him play basketball. Being with him makes me really happy.

But lately, I can sense he is troubled.. if only I can take his problems away in an instant... I wish I could just wave a wand and everything was better. I need that wand! *sad face*

I Have A Bit Of Things To Say

Still goomy and rainy outside. However, without thunder and lightning. Thunder scares me. lol. I woke up today to a bright flash outside my window, but it didn't last longer. I hope the sun is coming back soon.

My weekends was boring. I didn't go out on a Saturday night coz of it was raining. Friends didn't go out as well. So that didn't hurt me hehehe. Sunday was ok.. we picked up my cousin from the airport. Had fun talking with her though. My guy friends texted me to have some coffee.. unfortunately, heavy rain was a killjoy. They just called to cancel the coffee thingy. So I just stayed home texting with my boyfriend. He was with his family and relatives, but still managed to spare some time checking up on me. He even called just to make kulit.. teasing that I'm on speaker phone! (which at first I thought I wasn't.. but then again, I was on speaker phone). We're chatting right now.. and how can he miss teasing me again? lol. Silly man.

So, it's Monday once more, October the 1st, and so far it has been very productive, but we have so much more to do! Humph, life can be so daunting at times. But what can you do? Work has been acting crazy lately, some of my officemates are starting to dislike it. But the rest of the team I'm working with are OK. Not the kind of people I'd hang out with but not the kind I'd run away from either.

And lately... I discovered a lot about human behaviour at work..and also in the our society. People at the moment are really annoying and I can’t stop myself from constantly contemplating WHY?

1. WHY are so many people assholes?
2. WHY do they say one thing and do another?
3. WHY do they behave like idiots?
4. WHY, WHY, WHY?
5. And how can I use their behaviour to my advantage?

I think I’ve found the answer, we are working through it at the moment. When I’ve figured it out fully, I think all these my problems i have in mind at the moment or many of them will be solved. It should be an interesting experiment. Doncha think?