Sunday, December 30, 2007

Happy New Year!

Whenever the new year is right around the corner I always listen to this song at least a dozen times. It always brings a smile to my face and makes me feel like everything is gonna be just fine.

Death Cab for Cutie - The New Year


So this is the new year
And i don't feel any different
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions


So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogues bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speedtrains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that can hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back
There'd be no distance that could hold us back

So this is the new year
So this is the new year
So this is the new year
So this is the new year.

I cant wait for the New Year.

I've been so happy the last few days. I'm sleeping so well and I feel super loved.
Happy New Year guys! Be back next year for the updates.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

The Meaning Of My Life

What is the meaning of my life?
To never stop chasing my dreams. even if they change overnight I will go after them.

What are my dreams even?
Aside from dreaming and wanting to be with my man always, I'm basically standing here with open hands waiting for something to present itself to me. I want to be a student of life, i never want to stop learning - knowledge is power, after all. There's no point in dying with regret. So, my dreams are to never STOP dreaming, creating, doing, etc.

This is where I thank the A-holes of the past for teaching me how to beat them at their own game, and thanks to those who cared about me so I'd have the right tools to live life fully.

Friday, December 28, 2007

A Great Match In A Field Of White

Is it just me or is everything kind of changing in beautiful and crazy ways?

I simply cannot tell you enough, how much fun I've had last night. I just had a great wrestling match! Hahaha!

GOOD coochie-coochie-coo makes me happy.
GREAT coochie-coochie-coo makes me happier.

If you're smart enough, you'll know what I'm talking about. Tee-hee!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Things Are Coming Together

I'm off to bed in a bit. Hmmm.. sometimes I wonder if trees feel happy or sad during this time of year. I'm looking at the trees right now, and everything is changing. Everything there is beautiful. But I really do wonder if trees feel sadness from their dying leaves...as we appreciate the beauty in the process...or perhaps trees are happy to do their bidding in order to show us there is beauty and re-creation in death.

I feel better today. I'm even excited for tomorrow, it's pay day and start paying sh*t off.

Bills to pay:
1. Monthly payment for the new fridge I got as a Christmas present for my parents.
2. Electricity bill (yes folks, I do pay the electricity)

I have decided that I won't spend money on anything. I mean.. I will only spend money for the things I NEED, not on the things I WANT. I have a lot of things to do next year, and to travel is part of the plan. Also, Hec and I just had breakfast together and we're planning of going back to Boracay maybe in Febuary or March, which is my birth month. That should give me enough time to save up a little, knock two bills completely out of the way, and make regular payments on others to do the same. Whew. *smiles*

Now, I need to get some Z's.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Awesome Christmas

We all know that Christmas now is so hyped up and commercial he he he. The best thing is.. it's more for the giving and coming together to get awesome presents. I got new shirts, bling-blings, over sized shoes, guitar, underwears, 4 pillows, and mugs, and oh..how can I forget the 2008 Tanduay calendar that was given away from our Baranggay hahaha. Sweeeeettt!! I also got some other pretty awesome gift like a new trendy Taz bed cover and pillow cases. Also, it was my Mom's birthday, it was all fun, but boo because the power died on us around 8pm. It was hectic! I had so much running around to do and spent way too much money. I'm glad its over! Christmas was a pretty much a success for me, which is unusual to say the least.

God, I ate a lot I feel like a whale!

So here are the pics from the company's Christmas Party, December 22, 2007, on the rooftop. Woo-hoo. Sweet, eh?

Monday, December 24, 2007

Merry Christmas!

Five more hours and it's Christmas! Yay! Merry smashing Christmas everyone! Muahs!
















6th Monthsary

Yup, it's our 6th Monthsary of kisses, cuddles and love! :D

Just so you know.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

What To Give This Christmas

Today is my brother's birthday. Oh geez, I forgot to get him something. But it'll be good if I give him something on the 25th, I just don't have the time to buy presents today.

So, what's everybody's plans for Christmas? If you're like me, you'll probably just sit back and enjoy the few days off you have (if you have any) with your family. Also, does anyone care about giving presents? Well, of course, cause I couldn't say I represent the majority by saying I don't. At the most, I gave some cute personalized Christmas cards last year to all my friends and some cute stuffs to some great great friends. Unfortunately, I couldn't do it anymore until the 25th, though I bought some gifts for the people who are only close to me. I just don't have the best present idea lately. I hope a simple greeting could make some of my friends happy.

We had our Christmas Party last night. We had so much fun and everyone really enjoyed the party. We had good food, games, opening of presents and booze everywhere. Woot! I got drunk, but still in a sober state.. you know what I mean? Also, I went to Smallville to see Hectril. He was with his officemates partying after their Christmas Party last night. His lips tasted like sugar, for he had Rum Coke instead of beer. He he he.. yup, you guessed it, we kissed. I didn't stay there with him any longer because I had to go back in the office since our party is not yet over.

Two days before Christmas, and it's my Mom's 57th birthday. My parents give us some really happy moments when my siblings and I rip open our Christmas gifts on Christmas morning like a pack of wild savages. When we were kids, we were on a state where we still believe in Santa, it's so awesome. Our parents would always tell us to do all kinds of nice things around the house because "Santa is watching" ha ha ha. Our parents always want to make us the happiest possible, and that create warm memories for us. There is nothing I want more for Christmas than for my parents to have the best Christmas. :)

Best gift ever: LOVE.

Merry Christmas everyone and enjoy the holidays! Muahs!

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Me On Paper

Nothing to update with. But I'm gonna leave you with this sweet sketch.. from a pencil to Photoshop. :)














































Friday, December 21, 2007

The Blog Readability Test

cash advance
So.. it must take a Junior High School to figure out what I'm really trying to say here on my blog since I must not be saying it all that clearly. So... I write like a Junior High School, huh? Ha ha ha.The result is based on the content of your blog, how you use or construct the words. The jargons affect the results, knowing that I don't use intelligent words. He he he.

Anyway, this is just for fun guys, don't take this test seriously.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Do Not Waste Your Existence

I've been finding myself vaguely overwhelmed, and i think I'm going to go into it. It will probably be a little strange.

As I look over I see the one I love and cherish and known. I cannot see myself away from him and I cannot see us apart. Well, this is how i see thing as of the moment.

I'm feeling kinda fluffy today, kinda fluffy and lethargic, lethargic and unsightly, unsightly and sleepy. Eating fries and drinking Coke and floating in a dreamworld.

Oh yeah...

Welcome to my dreamworld. Here, I've got books (because I love to read), DVDs (because I'm a movie marathon queen), computer games and good memories, tempting each other to kiss, tempting each other to make love, and get stuck in a make-out room (hahaha), stuck in that groove that will eventually drive you crazy (yeah!), that's what it's there for, it's sole purpose to send you to another planet, another plane, a distant memory, echoing what you were. Echoing who you know and you're happy and no sadness, no melancholy. Limbo is non existent and Earth is all that we have to base ourselves in.

So, if you do not make use of your time here and if you die miserable and unhappy.. what a waste. What a waste you have made of your only existence.

I am pushing myself to obtain everything I want. I will do it because I won't waste my existence. And I am wandering, wandering on a road contemplating. For i am not what they thought. For I am not what they wanted. But I am contemplating the meaning of myself. And i realize I exist. Nothing, and no one can stop that.

Not him. Not her. Not you.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

A Letter to the North Pole

Dear Santa,

I have been a very naughty girl this year, and as a fitting gift, I would really appreciate if you will give me a pole so that I may show all of my friends just how awesome being a pole dancer is. Ha ha ha!

Bags, shoes, lingerie and gift cards are always acceptable too. :D

I'm actually feeling kinda blah about the whole Christmas thing. But I'm excited to go shopping for gifts. *fingers crossed for the Christmas bonus* he he he.

Anyhow, I've been my usual busy self lately. *sigh* ... I complain, but I love it.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Animal Brutality

Ok... I'm the first one to admit, I eat meat. I eat dairy. I have a couple of long leather skirts (I haven't worn them coz it's scorching heat here in the Philippines) and probably have leather shoes somewhere and have definitely sat on real leather couches. I haven't had worn fur, but used to have gray winter boots with fur sent to me by my cousin from Canada when I was in grade school, and no I haven't worn them either. Who could wear winter boots in a tropical country? Hehehe.

But after watching the videos on the PETA website, my view has changed. The things I saw on the site, honestly, made me sick to my stomach. I was mortified.

You think in this modern world, things like this don't happen? You think, surely, there are laws to prevent this kind of thing. But, there really aren't. And brutal things like that, still, really happen. Even here in the Philippines.

I can watch autopsy videos, look at car crash victims, all sorts of bodily infections, and all that gross stuff, and I don't flinch. But those videos, of things people do to those poor animals, made me sick. Literally. I wanted to cry.

I'm sure most of you are thinking, who cares? Chickens are going to lay eggs regardless. Why not eat the eggs? They are going to keep killing cows regardless of whether I eat it or not, so I may as well just eat beef. Cows are always going to produce milk, so why not drink it? And so on. But when you see the brutality and appalling conditions all of these animals go through in their lifetimes, it's absolutely disgusting. I can't believe it still goes on in this modern world.

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not some vegan preaching my ways to you. I'm just someone who's eyes have been opened to the "common" horrible ways these animals are being treated. For food, for products, for fur, for medical research, for entertainment! It's horrifying.

Especially when there are other alternatives out there. These things don't need to be happening. You can still eat your eggs, drink your milk and so on, without having to put these animals through hell. There are other ways.

If you can honestly watch those videos, and say it doesn't effect you, then there is seriously something wrong with you. You can't tell me skinning raccoons and other creatures alive, for their fur, is ok. They literally have the fur ripped from their bodies while they are alive, and are left to die a slow and painful death in their naked, skinless bodies. You can't tell me boiling cats and dogs alive, to remove their hair, so they can later be made into food, is ok. You can't tell me throwing turkeys and chickens up against a wall until they die, is ok. It's not ok.

Do something worthwhile today..

Watch those videos... PETA.

You might also wanna see Pigs on Factory Farms.


P.S
We were at the Deadman's Party XII around 12 midnight. The gig was ok, not that smashing. Unlike before, there used to be hell of a crowd. Pics and videos from the gig will be posted next week.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Calm Realization

Hear me talk:

Play again if it only allows you a 19 second streaming.

"I realize I get way too thoughtful in in this blog. I'm actually not this depressive in real life. I'm the exact opposite. I'm a messer. You can't stop me from doing anything. But this isn't real life, is it? And I forget about that sometimes. I think I'm all thinked out. So, I decided things had to change, and I wanted some answers. And I got them. And not from the place I thought either. things just suddenly have somewhat fallen into place."


So I have to admit to feeling slightly overwhelmed with things at the moment. :)

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Sleepless

It's hard when you lay in your bed and cannot sleep. Really hard for me to fall asleep and if I do, I sleep from 2pm and wakes up at 4pm. Then I'd go back to sleep by 6pm and wakes up at 8pm. and everytime I go to work, I feel like I'm a walking corpse. Don´t know why this is happening, maybe because I have too much free time??

In addition to that, I was watching tv from 4-5pm, and this documentary on BBC came on about abandoned children in Bulgaria. It made me realize how fucked up the world is. Its so sad, I cried during the whole thing! That's because I love children. Problem is, even though some people want to help, Bulgaria has refused to let charities into the country to help them. Hardly any of the children survived, usually dying coz they are malnourished, anorexic or just because they have been driven insane being locked in. I wish I'm a billionaire so I could help them all.

I'm still sleepy. *yawns*

I've tried different techniques to combat insomnia, however, they don't seem to work on me. Blah.

Related posts:
Insomnia
All I want to do is sleep

I'm A Real Downer

I can't really explain what's going on lately. I was a bit down and I don't know why though I've been doing things. New things. Things I've not done for ages, seeing people, meeting new people, and having an absolute blast. But still it feels like something is missing. It's silly really. It feels like I'm missing out something?

But really, I'm having the best time of things at the moment. My friends are just being absolutely wicked. Like i said, I've been doing things, and excited to go to places that I've wanted to go for the longest time, and I want to have so much fun while doing it all. I can't complain at all. Things are just all going really, well.. just good at the moment. But still, well, you know how it is....

I just want a hug, you know. I've been feeling so crap in myself these last few days. I can't explain, but what I feel right now actually just nose dived.

And just the last few days people have been so amazing. I have been talking to my best friends. And they are really trying hard to make me laugh.. I don't know how they could sense that I'm feeling troubled. they just really amaze me :)

So just a few minutes ago while doing the Sales Report (coz Logan asked me to) we were also talking about stuffs.. stuffs that really make me sad..waaahhh. Tears falling down my face..non-stop. And you know what he did? He let me listen to Edwin McCain's "These are the moments".. and he said something like:

"This will remind you of how much Hectril loves you". I feel really glad to have such positive people around me sometimes.

Oh but Hec is not the reason why I'm down. Like I said.. I don't know why I'm feeling like crap.

I will be alright when noodles is cooked. I have good friends that are good, and a sweet boyfriend who treats me like a princess. I really couldn't really ask for more.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Backstabbers (Part 2)

This is interesting. I don't tolerate your comments because you are naming names.

I'm so honored and flattered at the same time that you still keep on coming back and checking up on me. So you still talk about me when you go out on a date with him? Funny. Am I that important to you? Or you are still that insecure? He's all yours, I never like him anyway. I have my love and happiness now. Can't you just get one for yourself? It just f*cks with your own karma. Piece of advice and you will be happy --- MOVE ON!!

Sometimes you have to try to get along, dear. I know the truth and I know what you're doing and thinking. And yes..I'm at my wit's end. Just so you know.

I apologize for this post guys, I have to vent out. They are the same people who really pissed me off. If you really wanna know the whole story.. just read on.

Related posts for your enlightenment:
Move On
I Want To Spit On You Face

Two-Day National Strike Over Gas Price Hike

Whoah! I'm rhymin'!

I hate to be boring and talk about economics because I never liked this subject when I was in college.. but some of you should know that December 12 and 13 has been formally declared a national strike here in the Philippines. that means, the people or public drivers should go on strike. They want the government and oil companies to bring down the prices of gas and other oil products. This is also lame because some of the public drivers are not cooperating. If so, how can they feed their families if they will go on strike for two days?

Just think of it.. it would hit all industries with net losses of over millions of Pesos. And we're not quite sure if the government will step in and control the prices. It-is-not-going-to-happen!!!!!! The government was promised by the oil market for the control in prices and reduction..well, that was long ago but nothing good happened, really.

Not only is the price of gasoline and other oil products are going up but other companies will raise their prices, and it will affect everything. Everything will raise their prices. EVERYTHING! god damnit! Consumers are us, and we pay in the end. Sad, right?

On the other news:
I was sick as f*%k yesterday. And as of lately I've been sick every other day. One day I'll feel sick as sh*t and then the next I'll be fine. But yesterday was the worst of it all. I started throwing up before crawling up to bed at 2 in the afternoon, my sleeping pattern hasn't improved yet. My whole body was achy and weak. I seriously felt like I was going to die. Like seriously. But now I'm at work and I feel better. Still a little woozy but better nonetheless.

Well, hope everyone else out there is doing good. Stay warm and don't get sick tricks!

Monday, December 10, 2007

Sick, Yet Adored

Before anything else.. I've said this once and I'll say this again..
To my fans (lol) who still keeps on sending me naked photos and provoke me.. again, please read my rules. I might as well make an incident report to Yahoo to block your account.

Thumbs up:
My tummy is disappearing and my hips are sticking out. And my friend from New Hampshire,USA (pronounced as noo-hamp-shur) complimented on how wonderful my breasts are. Oh yes I'm proud to say I have nice breasts (not that she saw me naked..nah-ah, we just bumped at each other at the mall). I'm blessed with such a wonderful "twin peaks". These I wish not to disappear. And her boyfriend commented that I don't look like my age. Woo-hoo! To be young again! What can I say...I have an award winning charm for young men. But I don't like young guys anymore. Guess how old I am now?

Thumbs down:
You know what really grinds my gears? People telling me that I'm thin and using a negative tone. I eat what the f#@k I want when I want, and if that means a big bowl of ice cream with fruits and chocolate/caramel syrup then that's what I'll eat. The fact is, I gain weight in my thighs first, then my face, then everywhere else. so I'm not going to actively try to gain weight - not that I should have to anyway!

So I left you guys on Saturday (December 8th update) since then I've been really sick and again I missed my night life. I was slacking in bed and friends were texting me that they were partying, getting more booze and got drunk. I missed the fun :(. I had a very boring weekend, but I had lovely visitors and such. Somehow it was very nice.

*cough* *sneeze* *ouchie*

I'm plagued again. I am sick. I appear to have caught a cold. A proper little flu ridden, helpless mess. Full of snot and fever. And it's not particularly fun. My head is constantly pounding like it's going to burst out. *yeowch* ! My boyfriend says I should go to the doctor. I'm just scared that they will say it's something worse. I want to take a day off from work tonight. But that's not something I do..so I'm gonna work. Ya, I'm feeling sorry for myself, screw you. I want a cuddle. Cuddles fix fever, flu's or any kind of sickness, right?

Though I'm sick, I still smile..and I'm compelled to share. :)

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Christmas Spirit

"It's beginning to look alot like Christmas..."

We just put up our Christmas Tree in the office on thursday.
This is what we do when we have lots of free time in our hands. The pics where I am in my green striped blouse was just taken last night. Some images are a bit blurry.


Christmas is just around the corner. Oh please, don't forget to wrap my gift. ;)


P.S
Today is Hectril's 29th birthday. Please say nice things to him. Hehehe.

Friday, December 07, 2007

Dinner at Bigby's

Hec and I just had dinner at Bigby's in Smallville, an early celebration of his birthday. We can't make it tomorrow because he will be celebrating his day with his family and kids. He planned about having a dinner party at their house but things didn't go according to plan.

Whew. Good grief.

Pics from the resto just awhile back. We love ice cream! And we're dying to get the big bowl of ice cream (30 scoops with lots of fruits, caramel syrup, and chocolates; only for Php740) the next time we go there.

Intuition

As a woman, I tend to be more sensitive and can easily pick up vibes that men seem oblivious to(oops! i don't mean that as a slam against men). What others don't know is that all of us have it to some degree but for some reason women have more of it than men.

My intuition is real. Because at times,i would know or feel something (without my apparent effort) but I am not really sure what or where it came from. my intuitive feelings are really very accurate, this is more often than not, though. Maybe there is a reason for that, right? I pick up subtle clues presented to me by my vibes --- things that I might pick up and give vibes about them. And I think, these things are very subtle and sometimes I don't even know I notice them.. but I do. All I know is I have a feeling about something. And I trust my intuition, whether it be about situations or something that don't feel right, or other things in my daily life.. because I know it is real.

I don't really feel okay today.. this is why I'm writing (typing, to be exact) this entry.


P.S
Tomorrow is Hec's birthday. :)

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Bartender - T-Pain feat. Akon

Bartender. So cool :). Try to listen to the music. if you don't like it, then you must be a fan of Andrew E. Baduy. LMAO!

Aw geez, now I miss the life of the party. I haven't been going out for like what...a month and a half? Party girl that I am, honestly I miss partying lol. Does it sounds like a world crisis for me? Hahaha.

Listen:

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

I Need Suggestions

Hectril's birthday is coming up, and I would adore suggestions on what to get him. He's into computers, Playstation (I'm thinking of getting him some PS games), he's into gadgets and technology. He also really loves watching movies, and likes to watch National Geographic Channel. There are so many options on my mind and I need help narrowing it down so I'd love suggestions!

I'm thinking of getting him nice shirts but it's hard for me to get him the bigger sizes. because when I got him a couple of shirts before, they were small/tight for him though those sizes were XXL. He also really loves food but I think I'm not going to get him something edible. But I could be. HAHAHA! Kidding! *big grin*

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

His Letter For Me

I was just over on my boyfriend's blog and it makes my day complete.

I love him and I'm super happy. I couldn't ask for more. I'm not gonna change it for the world!

Read on!

Sunday, December 02, 2007

December Birthdays

Whoa! Time flies so fast. It's already December 2nd.

Upcoming Birthdays:
December 8th - Hectril
December 23rd - my brother
December 25th - Mom (Xmas day).

Right now, I'm checking online of what's the trendiest gifts to buy this Christmas. I'm looking for a cheap yet classy presents.

Saturday, December 01, 2007

Boracay Pics

Just woke up and here I am again sitting, checking my mails and updating. But what should I update with? I have nothing much to say since this crappy laptop has been dying on me 3 times in a row. Silly thing.

I couldn't find my pictures during my Baguio trip and so I thought I could find them at Flickr, but boo because they ain't there. I tried logging in to my photobucket and onetruemedia but they ain't there as well.

I've found these pictures from our Boracay trip back in June 2007. Some of the pics are in my computer at the office. I'll upload 'em up here as soon as I can. I couldn't find the one where I was in my red floral bikini. :D


I frequent Boracay every summer. It's über popular summer getaway. I wanna go there again, with Hec of course. Hmm.. I better talk to him about this and plan ahead for this trip. :D