I'm so bored. It's a holiday, Independence Day.. and the day seems so slow. If the boyfriend is here, my day would always be exciting. Like right now, I am so depressed. And whenever I am depressed.. one thing comes into my mind are the pills. I don't like being depressed, because it can kill me. Also, it's really different when you have a job, and at least I don't get bored easily.
Not so long ago, I was a bit upset with so many things. Also, there are people who are ungrateful that saddens me, and pisses me of at the same time. Maybe I need to avoid these people.. too bad i used to treat them as friends. I am often nice to people, I don't know why they always take advantage of my kindness.
I miss my friends, and people who are always there for me, no matter what. People who I can have fun with, make me laugh, and cry on their shoulders, and all the good stuffs in between. I really miss that.. but I don't think I want to see any of them for now. Weird right? I am getting so down, because I don't have that, yet I don't want their company.
Lately, I don't ever go out, real friends would often invite me out but I don't feel like I want to be with them for now. So, tomorrow night I'm invited for a night out.. my bf knows about it already, and he's OK with it. However, I don't feel like I really want to go out.
School will start on Monday, I don't have all the stuff I need yet, but it's ok. Classes proper won't probably start on Monday. I'm kinda nervous and excited for school. So.. that is something.
P.S
I miss my bf.
12 more days,and it's our 2nd year anniversary. So, yeah.
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